Sudden thoughts

I'm now sitting alone at the void deck, puffing a stick while typing this. Too many thoughts running through my mind, sometimes I wish that my mind would just stop functioning for at least a day. It's tiring thinking through so many stuffs, and yet no one can understand you. I think it's pretty pathetic to be a human. Trying so hard to become perfect, and working so hard to let people understand you. And yet, it just boils down to nothing. Yes. Nothing.

Yes, i'm not a perfect girl. And even thou sometimes I wish I was perfect, I know that it's useless to be perfect. Cus when people aren't on the same wavelength as you, they don't think the same as you do, misunderstandings, arguments, disputes, unhappiness will still occur. And in the end, all parties will still be affected. So why bother being perfect?

I'm not a barbie kind of girl, I don't really like dolling up, wearing pretty dresses and make up everyday. I have tons of mood swings, and am pretty vulgar when I'm agitated. I don't really like crowded places, and I don't like to make small talk with people that I'm not familiar with. I would prefer to be with just a small group of friends, friends I actually can talk to about anything, instead of mingling with tons of people who are hi-bye friends. I know I am very indecisive and impulsive, but who doesn't makes mistakes? And when I love someone, I'll love whole-heartedly. I'll put all that I have in that person. I just wanna live a simple life with people that I love, and loves me back in return. Is that just too hard to ask for?

There's still too many random thoughts going through my mind. But I'll just stop here for now. I think it's enough for digestion. Isn't it?

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Alexa Angie